Had to make a decision yesterday (Sunday) that will probably cost me in regards to my Digi-Scrapland friendships and future opportunities. If you're one of those people and are unfriending me on Facebook or unfollowing me on Twitter because of it, don't worry (not that you were) I understand and thank you for the time I had you as a friend.
I've probably burned at least one bridge because of my decision, if not more. I'm not proud of that. I feel really bad but I think that bridge has been smoldering for sometime, should have read the smoke signals earlier. Ripping it off like a bandaid and separating myself was the only way it could think to do it. I've got to put my family first and I've only been putting off the decision for some time now. I finally hit the tipping point I guess.
I took some time to step back and reassess and then reassessed again and my boys and Hubs keep coming up with the short end of the stick, not to mention the lovely lady I was working with. So I had to make a choice, and I think it's for the best, my hybrids were crap and always have been. Confidence can only get you so far, you actually have to make something somebody wants. So I'll get some sleep (I hope) and start again tomorrow and see where the path I'm on now takes me.
I know I took the coward's way out but it was time for me to leave, I'd worn out my welcome and didn't feel the trust I know I deserved was there. The aftermath of this could be brutal, I may lose a spot on some CTs as a result, but at this point I guess I have to take like a big girl and life will go on.
Never let anyone tell you hybrid is cheap, especially the number of projects I do in a month! I had a designer (a different one) that recognized this and would paypal me a nominal amount to take the bite out of the cost of supplies, that’s the way to do it IMO. Add the time to create a project, plus printing (ink and paper) plus time to assemble (cost of adhesives) then photographing the projects, (oh don’t forget the props) time spent processing those photos and then uploading to a zillion galleries (there’s got to be a better way to do the gallery thing I tell ya!) I see now why there are so few hybrid CT gals out there. Did I have to do all those projects? No not really, but I chose to, because I hate to say no to anyone or any challenge that comes my way. And I was honestly just whoring myself out to get attention hoping they’d buy my designs, for better or worse, and in turn burning myself out. So no one bought the designs and I got burnt out any way, yah me?
So I will pack up my sucky projects and concentrate on quality over quantity and hope this new direction doesn’t lead me to junctions where I have to traverse crossing those burnt bridges. What else can I do?
Thank you for listening to my ramblings, and my whining. Time to catch some z’s, get rid of this horrible migraine, process the bad news my Hubs finally dumped on me after holding in in for literally months and hopefully just rest.
Thank you again, and I’ll see ya’ll real soon, I hope!